finding the marker: facing the truth, which is, in fact, this moment, and nothing more.

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This morning I weighed myself because after sitting, I was ready to do it without so much judgment, and I told myself, it is what it is, and nothing more, and when I saw the number I didn't hate myself, I didn't feel frustrated or sad or angry. It's simply the number representing where I am at this time-- a number that can and will change, depending on my actions. Nothing about my body is fixed or set-- I'm the guardian, it's my work to be with myself as best I can, to nurture, protect, forgive and support my body in the process of getting and staying healthy. I just need to show up.

So here I am.